Closure in this chapter.
I have loved & disliked the life I have lived. When change came there was resistance. Not always expressed but always acknowledged. Now, a year later missing the familiar begins anew. Starting to feel the pain of loss. Feeling the anticipation of what is to come. Enjoying life and fearing the next chapter. Will I love this next chapter? It's my choice, isn't it. I'm reminded, "the only thing that is constant is change." From change comes much growth, good Lord I should be a giant of a person. Feelings of inadequacy and dependance. I shout for joy at the finality of this chapter. Bitter sweet shouts of joy for the ones who have forever changed my life. We need change, so that we may develop into the one we are meant to be. No longer, co-dependent on the piano my access denied for many reasons.
The Hill is a place forever embedded in my minds eye and in my soul. A longing to return to that place of solace and peace. Hawks, birds of all kinds, lizards, frogs, snakes, wildlife abound on the Hill. Love, intimacy, freedom and renewed love for husband found on the Hill. Joyous laughter in my intimacy with my lover. We will always remember the growth and difficulty with the Hill. Surrounded by earth, flowers, plants unfamiliar & calls from the Coyote Chorus's. Frogs serenade our love for each other. Renewed and rediscovered freedom in our intimacy. Friends call jogs my mind, time spent on the porch. The scenery below is vibrant with light that reflects off the ocean view. Blue color is expansive and profound, it's a view to be never repeated on this earth. Sunsets, that are shaded in blues, purples, pinks and white. Lovely sights take my breath away and give appreciation to the Maker. Prayers come freely, spirituality grown and renewed. My love for life once again refreshed anew. Full moon lights my pathway making my walk in the dark easy and delightful. Feel the presence of the Father who gives light to all. WE are blessed in this adventure & feel humbled at the sight of it. Truly, this in an intentional gift from the Father. We acknowledge his presence in all creation and are grateful for it. My life is changed because of the freedom we shared. Life is good !
