Feeling yucky !

I feel nauseated and quite yucky today. I guess it's just one of those days. Actually, I've had a few nausea days. Anti nausea pills don't seem to help. I wish I could take "the magic pill" and feel better. Is there a magic pill out there for M.S.? How I wish there was one, I'd sign up, wait & look forward with hope. I have hope but sometimes I loose sight of hope. Hope is always there to be had but, it seems my mind is too cluttered with the unknown. Today, I should rest and realize that God doesn't mind if I'm a couch potato for a time.  Do you think that God has to take a couch day? I don't understand everything there is to know about life. I've learned compassion through m.s. and I'm not inclined to judge. (I hope) Those smiling faces are the popular mask that we must wear. My mask is beginning to sag a bit. That comes with time and gravity. Dang gravity! The mask is the least of my worries. Do you ever wonder what life will be like on the other side? I hope it's filled with much laughter and no more tears from sadness. I want to feel happy inside but I find it difficult when I'm in pain. Did I really sign up for this? Did I know what was coming in my life? Would I have change my past if I could? The answer is,, I wouldn't change anything that I have done. Even, with all the mistakes I've made in life I'd more than likely do the same things over and over. Are we creatures of habit or we just fall mindlessly into the next phase of life? Sometimes, I feel like I've kicked and resisted most of my life. Is this the lesson, to give in and completely trust? I know that I have major trust issues and I have to work on that. I need to draw closer to my Heavenly Father and know that he will never break promises to me.